Steps forward

A great weight has been lifted!

Its great to finally get the truth out there and known and relieve yourself from all the stress and anxiety that comes from holding on to things. When u learn to let you start to reclaim your life back. You begin realizing that life is not as bad it seems and that you have more control over the things that occur around u. Being able to let out the feelings will allow you to breathe a sigh or relief because you know now that its ok to say how you felt and say what happened and youll be okay at the end of the day. Theres is nobody in this world who has a right to stop you from being happy...For too long I have lived for other people and done what others wanted me to do whether I liked or not....I have been yelled at, cursed at, beaten, pushed around,swung around, and run over by people in my life to the point I felt like there was no longer a person inside of me..that I was just there to be used....I will NEVER feel that way again...and I dont want others to have to feel like that either...thats why I feel its soo important for me to be open with others and so in doing so maybe I could help once girl or guy stand up for themselves and say no more and get the help they need to free themselves from their cages and live their life!! You are nobodies prisoner...you are made for you and you only....you are a piece of work created by God to live and do how you know and feel is right...Even if you are not a believer of God u were designed by a higher power for a greater cause in life... you are important and you should be treated as such dont ever let anyone tell you different....you are strong and capable of great things!! Take the steps needed to move forward in your life of recovery and peace...Allow yourself the joy of knowing true happiness :()

Just a Lesson

You need to learn to accept the things you cannot change and appreciate the things you can. I have struggled for too long with my enemies and I am tired. But im not tired to quit im tired and fed up and filled with strength to fight  for what I really believe in. Its time turn be the person I was born and destined to be. God had a plan for me and I strayed from the path but im turning back and I refuse to look back any longer. I will be somebody and I will make it through my troubled times. I will have great success in everything that I do. I am a designer original. When I have figured out who I am I can finally move past all the troubles and the people who have stopped me from getting to where I needed to be. I will no longer do things for other people are not deserving or trying to help themselves.  I have done too many self inflicted nonsense or sins to my own life. I have allowed the sins from myself and other people to corrupt the integrity of who i am and who i intend to be.
God can restore us back to where we were intended to be. Everything I have done, the guilt, the shame has already been handled by God. Everything the devil has done to me  has been fixed, forgiven, renewed, and redeemed by God. God has reclaimed my value and I am working to be the person I was intended to be.  People will look back and see where I was and see where I am now and they will say she proved me wrong, shes doing something with herself. Shes living up to who she was intended to be.It will prove to people that God is alive and working in peoples lives. I will  not be ashamed and I will not be used as a doormat to others. Everyone WILL treat me like I am a masterpiece!
If you cant realize who I am and what im about you have to go! I wont let anyone treat me bad or make my life hell or bring stress into my life or bring me down. I am nobodies prisoner!! I will no longer be intimidated by others. What I have to say has value and people will listen to me. I will appreciate myself for who I am and what im worth!! I am Somebody!! :)
I AM A PIECE OF WORK!!
God is going to do everything just for me. I will make it, I will suceed I will not give now I make the devil a liar!! If I made it this far when God gets through with me Ill be a piece of work!

Life Lesson

Many times when I was younger I felt I was meant to be different and like certain things and do certain things but I was so confused and in to pleasing everyone else that I forgot to be myself. This is one of the major things that has stopped me from progressing in a positive manner. Without the knowledge of who I was I drowned myself in who everyone else wanted me to be. I was everyones friend and Iwas always the giver and the reciever. I always wanted to please everyone from my family to friends to complete strangers. I never knew that being this confused when I was so young would unravel into a huge ball of failures and troubles. Thats why my lesson I am talking about today is all about Learning Who You Are. No matter what people say or do it shouldnt change how you are as a person. Thats why its so important to understand who you are so you wont act a certain way with one particular person and then a new way with another. This will eventually turn into a big ball of confusion when you cant remember who you are suppose to be like with that person. You need to spend some time really thinking about what makes you tick. Dont say your child or your family but actually what makes you..U! What are your likes or dislikes..what are some of your downfalls? what are some of your gifts..anything that describes the real you is what you need to know. Once you figure this out use them to your advantage. Build up your confidence with who you are and how you carry yourself and it wil attract a whole new group of people. People who are no good for you will fall back because they will no longer be able to use you for a doormat. You are no longer here to help others or be what they want. You can help others to become better "thems" but you cant stand back and wait for them to change. You can give them the tools but they have to use them. If they dont you have to keep it moving. Everything is about bettering yourself so you can look in the mirror say I know Who I Am and I Like What I See!

Struggle2

Dealing with other peoples thoughts and judgements about u will never be easy...but you have to stand firm to knowing your a good person and know that everyone makes mistakes in their life its just how they learn from their past and make a better future...its not always that easy when you have to hear peoples thoughts of u and ur decisions specially when they are coming from people close to you or sometimes even strangers...instead of getting mad ask yourself this.....do they know how you truly are? Do they know all the facts to judge you with? Do you think your the way they say you are? If the answers no then do not worry with there thoughts. Listen and nod if needed don't get loud or talk back just ask them if they have all the facts and do they know the difference in an opinion and judgement...then walk away and keep on doing good with your life.. you have so much to prove to the world and their will always be obstacles but hold on cus after the obstacle there's a better life!

Nikkigstarr

Tears..

Tears come in many forms...anger...frustration...sad...pain....happy....but the silent tears are the ones 2 fear....when the tears fall from eyes and you have no one emotion going through your mind....be wise when u have these silent moments..when they come u have a choice on how to go about them...make the better choice 4 urself...don't be afraid to cry just know why and know that when ur done crying u have to pick up and keep moving forward..

Nikkigstarr :)

Struggle1

A struggle between a parent is hard..but a rocky relationship on top of that is even worse...trying to mend something that's broken...is worthwhile for the most part....but all the time its easy 2 want 2 quit trying....having two very big personalities trying to come together is hard....but working through them to get to that peaceful place is worth all the bumps n in the road..

NikkigStarr

Patience

No matter the age or the level of stress u have to learn one of the most valuable lesson of...Patience. It helps ease your stress and anxiety..Remember this when u come across hard times..

NikkigStarr